Sooo... I'm gonna start a new full time job in April. Yeah, great stuff and all and it's gonna be so exciting and blablabla. UGH. Please, don't get me wrong, I kinda DO look forward to getting out of this mess and earn money again and the job IS quite nice, I guess, but I'm scared as shit. Two weeks left and the anxiety level is rising at it's highest rate and I'm trying to figure out how to keep cool, calm and collected. It's a relief and a nightmare at the same time. I'm scared of failing AGAIN, of getting fired AGAIN and ugh. No one understands it? Everyone's trying to encourage me ("You're gonna do SO GREAT ZOMG!", "I know you can do anything!", "Just give your BEST and you'll be fine!" and all that) and they mean SO
well, I know
it, but it also puts a LOT of pressure on me and I don't even have figured out my latest depression and there are moments I just don't know how to handle it all. What if... AGH! ALL THOSE WHAT IFS! I CAN PLASTER OUR FLAT WITH ALL MY "WHAT IF..."s .... RARGH!
Whatever. Eeeeeeverything will be fineblablablaaah. BLAH.
What have YOU been up to?